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Wednesday, November 30, 2005 Second day of work. . . i realised i couldn't really click well with the rest of my colleagues. . . I didn't know why, but somehow feel that they are like. . . quite cold towards me. . . I wonder if it's because i couldn't speak their language or whether my face just shone them off. . . or even because my working attitude pissed them off. . . Haiz. . my interpersonal relationship with others is really horrible. . .Luckily the captain was nice. . . Yes, i mean the one today. . . She's sorta unlike other captain i had experienced in other restaurant. . She don't put on air and speak to you really nicely and patiently as well. . . Made me feel really guilty if i could not do as she told. . . So everything i just tried to do as she taught me, even as other didn't follow suit. . . I've been sticking to this line. . waiter. . for like 5years. .? and i've been thinking that why had i been taking up such jobs all these while. . Well, i guess i got an answer for myself. . . Put the reason that i couldn't find other job aside, i realised that it kill off time the fastest compare to other trade. . It's not an easy job being a waiter as there are times where you can get real busy. . . but it's at this busy moment where times pass the fastest. . my captain today share the same sentiment as me. . . Imagine a job where you just stand or sit down there for time to pass, even though you get paid, it's no different to getting yourself imprisoned. . . So i mean, waiter is not an awful job afterall. . . but i still cant find reason to deny that it's a low-class job. . . you just have to see the face of others in this line, it's totally unavoidable. . Tuesday, November 29, 2005 So. . . this was my first day at taka. . . and i'm still alive and kicking. . . everyday went smooth and fine, except perhaps maybe for some minor mistakes here and there. . . Not too bad a performance for a nooby like me, among a group of vietnamese waiters and waitresses who appeared so experience to me. . . I talked to few them while working. . . found out that they were here for the 'food and beverage' diploma. . . One of them. . ah Moon. . was even a university graduate at vietnam. .! Well. . . anyway they all were nice people except that sometimes i didn't quite get what they are talking about. . . And oh. . by the way. . . i wanted to be known as keith there. . ! Really learned alot of things today and i've understood that a change of environment is good man. . !Sunday, November 27, 2005 A week's gone. . . And here i am. . still wandering where am i. . . where have all the fun gone. . ?I realised i've been down on my luck recently. . . fell and spilled a dish of steamed garoupa while working yesterday. . . and recent events just isn't any good to speak of. . . damn man. . . i guess i've to admit that i am letting my mood rule my life. . . this few days of bad mood have been giving me lotsa problems. . . really hope this will end soon. . . give me something that can lighten my mood. . . something worth to be happy of. . ? My brother. . . now heading the bowen alumni. . . wish to recruit more ex-bowenians into the association, and engaged my help. . . I've asked wan teng and some other guys. . no one seems to be keen. . . this isn't looking good. . . i've heard of him speaking of big plans ahead, and i thought recruiting gonna be easy, given the number of bowenians that had graduated so far. . . but from how things are going. . . maybe, they are slightly too ambitious. . . bowenians. . . as they are. . are afterall. . still bowenians. . . they are unlike those i know of. . victorians. . . like zixiang. . . ever so enthusiastic about their mother school, ever so proud of being the old boys of vs. . . so bowen alumni. . . still a long way to go. . . Alright. . tomorrow starting work at taka seafood buffet restaurant. . . new workplace, new environment. . hope everything will go fine. . . Friday, November 25, 2005 I've been running for the consecutive third day. . . And alright. . i've proved that i am capable of running but the problem now. . . i can't do pull up. . ! Yesterday was running with william and well. . doing pull-up seems nothing to him. . . obviously what i saw was it took as though no effort for him to get 10 times up. . . and for me. . ? i struggled even to get myself up once. . . eventually, i gave up and settled for one. . . 'embarrassment' clearly written on my face. . . Oh god. . i desperately needa train myself up. . . the question is. . . how.? Been lifting weight for like a month or so. . . and instead of helping me to get better, i became worst. . used to be able to do at least 3. . and now. .? one. . what the heck man. . . I'm really weak. . .Anyway. . . packed my drawers today. . . threw away lotsa of old things and flipped through some old stuffs. . . Old stuffs. . . these brought me back with memories. . . . Most of these are cards recieved when i was in primary school. . . Can't believed that i have kept them so nicely till now. . . filled with a mixture of emotions as i read through them. . . I really regret. . . most of these cards i received from have already lost contact with me. . . and maybe for a few, i guess our friendship have already been lost. . . it kinda sad. . . I just felt i am the cause of all these. . . i'm too dao and insensitive. . . sorry. . . suddenly yearn to know how they are doing now. . . all those times we shared. . . especially the last few moments we spent at the chalet together. . . haiz. . . Well. . . while there are old stuffs. . . there were new stuffs as well. . . a few gifts from ya hui. . . i hasn't really had a good look at them until just now. . . they weren't expensive stuffs but i will certainly cherish them alot. . . it's not for any other reason but because these things, mostly came from her own hands, just give me the feeling that they all were true and sincere. . . i'm not really sure that was exactly how i feel but i guess that's the best i can say if i'm to use words to describe. . . so i mean. . we will always be friend no matter what happen. . . Not sure whether i'm too sensitive or what, but i just feel this week just isn't going quite right for me. . . everybody seems to be leaving. . . joseph going back to hong kong, zixiang going to new zealand. . . it's as though my world is getting with fewer people. . . and i'm getting more bored with my life. . . lost my direction in life. . . it's as if all that i'm waiting now is for national service to come and pick me up. . . haiz. . i am freaking going crazy if this goes on. . . Thursday, November 24, 2005 This day. . . one year ago. . . i am there in yunan, dali, xia he chuan village. . . The weather at night chilling. . . With our winter jackets on, few of us were staring into the sky, almost entirely occupied with stars. . . of different size, different brightness, different colours. . . it's a spectacular slight, something you never get to see in the brightly-lit Singapore sky. . . Others were there, playing majong, poker cards, chinese chess, chatting. . . There. . . though we were shivering at such low temperature. . . we were just happy there. . . sometimes i just wish to go back to those moments. . . at least then, i won't be feeling so pissed as now. . .Yunan. . . it's been a year. . . those memories still vivid in my mind. . . as if it was just yesterday. . . Time just flies so fast. . . Pissed pissed pissed. . .! I just feel so pissed. . . No one can stand my attitude, just get lost. . . I hate changes. . . especially changes that cropped up last minute and ruin the whole of my schedule. . . just what should i do now. .? maybe spend the remaining time of my day playing Winning Eleven. .? Oh gosh. . . i don't like this feeling. . . it just spoil my mood. . . Anyway. . . It's all over. . . I just knew it's over and that's it for A level, even though i clearly realised i have screwed this last paper. . . I don't wish to comment any further, my momentum has been lost ever since the physics paper 3 on last wednesday. . . and now, this paper just appeared to be another one that i'm obliged to do in order to complete the whole process. . . I'm just back from my salon, my hair now reddish-blond in colour. . . I'm not sure is it cool to have the whole hair like this, but certainly i hope my $51 spent hasn't been wasted like this. . . Wednesday, November 23, 2005 It's a good day to slack. . . It's been so long as i realised. . . had i really have a chance to just stay at home for the whole day like this. . . slacking and wasting my time away. . . Such a feeling is good. . . a kinda of pleasure. . . but i can't really seem to enjoy it. . . maybe because the examination mood in me hasn't gone. . . i still feel a certain kinda discomfort as i tried to indulge myself in this slacking process. . . Now then i learnt slacking is actually a form a therapy, a way to get your weary mind and soul to rest and enjoy the 'beauty of wasting time away'. . . Seriously, they say 'time is money', so wasting time is just like going out on a shopping spree. . . It makes one relax and happy. . .Tuesday, November 22, 2005 I hope i have not screwed things out. . . But i tried my best. . sorry. . I guess things just didn't work right from the beginning. . . So i thought maybe. . . just forget about it. . .Chee yong was probably right. . . The sequence all jumbled up. . . The first step was wrong. . . We have neglected the fact that she's someone from the neighbourhood. . . That could explain the 'freak out' incident. . . Whatever the case. . . It will not be easy to start all over again. . though not impossible. . . Alright. . end of story. . I nearly bought a $59 shirt yesterday. . ! And luckily, Zixiang was wise to suggest that i go back to the shop and exchange it for two cheaper shirts. . . Can you imagine how i felt the instance when i realised the shirt actually cost that much because it belongs to the 'limited edition' cartegory and paid so reluctantly though eventually. . . My whole face just change. . . The thought of just seeing the money from two days of hardwork just flew away like this shaken me. . . Felt so much more relieved after changing it for two shirt (since kelvin's getting another one). . . i wouldn't know how to face myself after that if this hasn't happen. . . Actually yesterday, i was out with Zixiang and Kelvin with the intention of looking for some prom stuffs at town, after heeding Sylvia's advice. . . And it turned out that what i wanted has no more stock left. .! A white jacket at jean perry. . . No more now. . ! Can't believe this happened and spoiled my whole plan. . . Now that i have to seek an alternative way out. . . I guess i will just end up lending the black one from jialiang instead. . . That maybe good too. . . i can might as well spend the money to tailor a pant and maybe. . get a shirt. . Anyway. . it's too early to come to any conclusion. . . Before that, i will be going to dye my hair on thursday straight after Physics Paper 5! Sunday, November 20, 2005 I have since been waiting for the end of A level from the very first day i started mugging. . Yet paradoxically, i found myself suddenly feeling so lost when this day came. . I found myself losing my primary purpose of life. . . Before that. . it was just study, study and study. . You just have to live with book and everyday's the same. . . It's called lifeless and anyway it's still consider a form of life. . . Compared to now. . . I was really wandering what should i do. . Except the weekends where i will most probably be working at that old place. . Gim tim. . . otherwise i'm at a lost of working things to occupy myself. . Giving my current situation, it's virtually impossible for me to get a full-time or part time job. . thanks to my 7th jan national service enlistment. . And well. . . Besides these. . i still needa consider my financial aspect. . Prom night's coming and have to scrimp and save in order to get myself all ready to attend it. . . That's the once and only jc prom i gonna have and i certainly hope to attend it in the best shape i could have. . . A jacket that cost $129, a hair-do that will cost $60. . . These two things alone will cost me almost two hundred dollars. . I'm thinking whether i have to rob the bank in order to get them done. . Anyway. . to scrimp and save implies that i can't go out that often to cut my expenses. . Haiz. . What kinda of life i gonna have man. . Someone please give me answer. . !Thursday, November 17, 2005 Weeks of intensive studying can finally be put to a stop. . . i now declare that A level is unofficially over. .! It has not been easy these few weeks. . . months. . . days. . . it's as though i was living through books, lectures notes, 10 year series. . . Life sucks like this man. . . I will not want a second time of this kinda experience again. . . Mugging is not for me. . . I don't want to be enslaved by books. .Nevertheless, these days of mugging has been pretty memorable. . . From compass point, we switch our mugging locations to hougang green. . hougang point. . serangoon garden coffee bean. .macdonald. . . Can't imagine that we had went to so many places just to study. . . The days of studying with friends. . . Kelvin. . Zixiang. . was extremely wonderful and enjoyable. . . especially the times where talked about lotsa of crazy stuff. . you will never guess it. . . they were really crazy stuffs. . . and highly confidential. . . Wahahaha. .! It may sound as though we were just out to have fun. . . but NO! Man, you will never believe how serious we are when we were studying. . . 110% effort and concentration. . ! Even kelvin is working hard! All of us are out to achieve a place of our choice in University man. .! Anyway . . A level this year have prove to be tough. . . I guess i needa pray hard in order to do well. . . Maths paper was a killer. . . Chemistry paper 3 another. . . Physics paper 2 a surprise. . But in any case. . . i didn't wish to dwell too much into it. . . I just want to finish the paper and let the verdict come out when result is released. . I seriously didn't feel the need of being too traumatised by the scripts since this is not gonna change anything. . . Enjoy now and worry later. . Haiz. . 2 more papers to go. . . Chemistry paper 1 and physics paper 5. . but well. . i'm off to playing mode already. . Monday, November 07, 2005 Just one day away. .! Tomorrow's gonna be a big days. . . Marks the start for the A level. . . i can't help shaking whenever i thought of it. . . Man. . . it's just so fast. . . i didn't even have time to think whether i have prepared well enough. . . i hope i won't just go in and test my luck out. . .Weeks of mugging hasn't seem to able to relief this innate fear of mine. . . it's really a big big test in my life and i can't afford to screw it out. . . Can't believe that i am going to go through all these tomorrow and subsequent days. . . This week alone will be crucial. . . math paper 1 on tuesday, chemistry paper 3 on wednesday, gp full paper on thursday, math paper 2 on friday. . . Tightly scheduled, didn't even leave some space for us to breathe. . . i really really prayed hard. . . Great hopes and great dreams ahead of me. . ! but if i screw this, everything will be dashed. . . i'm SCARED! Tuesday, November 01, 2005 This day. . . next week. . . i will have finish my A level math paper 1. . . It's just so fast. . . Man. . i really gonna work very hard for this entire week. . . So close to A level, and i feeling the tension and anxiety. . . This exam will determine my future. . . cannot afford to have any room to slack anymore. . .!I felt i'm so crazy to have went shopping for my shoe yesterday with rong. . . but well. . i didn't got a choice anyway. . . i can't just go and sit for my A level with my pairs of slippers right. . .? I've got a converse shoe. . . Not any impressive, but considering my budget and urgency, a pair of shoe like for 100 bucks might have been good enough. . . And ya. . . i saw a few of my old friends yesterday. . . Bing Ren and Benjamin. . . They were on their way to Clarke Quay to club. . . Cool huh. . ? I'm staring at them with envy. . ! Here i am struggling to study for my A level and there they were having fun outside. . . What a contrast. . ! Whatever the case, it's been great to be able to see them. . . Basically they were still the same. . . Bing Ren still as cool as before. . . and Benjamin. . . as playful as before. . . So. . . i think i better stop. . |
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