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Monday, January 30, 2006 Second day of Chinese New Year. . . A day to my book in day. . . 24 hours later, i will be in my bunk. . . soundly asleep. . .Holiday never long enough, breaktime always seem so short-lived. . . This holiday. . have i spent it to the optimum. . ? Not sure why. . somehow feel that something is missing. . . Chinese new year. . . everyone is busy out there. . . visiting relatives with their families, it's definitely not a good time to ask people out. . . that's why i avoid doing so. . . yet i can't help feeling so free. . . i spent my time at home, with ways of slacking. . . watching television, staring at my computer, taking frequent naps. . . I'm not one who enjoy slacking. . . i would rather spend the time going out with friends, talking craps etc. . . Luckily i wasn't the only one. . . my brother was at home too, slacking the same way as i do. . We both seriously are just too free this new year. . . Only for yesterday night, i went out with Chee Yong. . . It looks a bit gay to have two guys watching a movie together in a new year like this, but i didn't care. . . Others were too busy with their new year visits and it just left two of us. . . the best of friend to watch Memoir of geisha at junction 8. . . It's a good show, except that the ending. . . slight of a letdown. . . i expect something that's more dramatic, rather than a simple happy ending. . . Anyway, we went talking cock at a playground at ang mo kio later on. . . He shared with me his fantastic working experience as some salesman in a pasar malam and i told him my pathetic army story. . . But there was a conclusion. . . that working life and army life both sucks. . . The best maybe afterall. . school days. . . I miss my school days. . . ! Booking in tomorrow on 2100. . . Haiz. .! Sunday, January 29, 2006 Happy chinese new year. . .! Gong Xi Fa Cai. . !Chinese new year. . . I recalled when i was younger, i always look forward to it. . . it was when i can get lotsa red packets, eat lotsa good food and enjoy myself thoroughly. . But as i grow older. . . The significant of chinese new year starts to diminish in me. . . Just like this year perhaps. . . Chinese new year is no more than another holiday to me. . . This occurs when u are more financially independent - you don't need extra cash from red packets, you can always eat good food whenever you like, you enjoy yourself more in other occasion. . . 4 days of book out days i've got from the chinese new year holiday. . Somehow feel it's short, and as it goes. . the time when you are outside always pass so quickly. . . 4 days will be over in no time. . . And as soon as i've got back in camp, the real tough period will come. . . Live range is up next and field camp coming near. . . The life in camp. . i hope it's getting better. . . I got less scolding nowadays by my sergeants and that made my life slightly easier in there. . . Of course i still hate army life. . . but when you are stucked in a situation where you have to live with it, you just have to learn to console yourself and try to love it. . . I gave out the thought of joining the air force this week. . . I went for the Air Defence Artillery interview on monday, screwed it up and failed the interview. . . They asked me questions, where i don't have an answer myself. . . i simply gave answers that too obvious, were lies. . If i were to give frank answers, then i will just say i wanted to join for the study award, for the yearly allowance, for the prestige and to get myself away from combat units. . . There was a dilemma between giving my true views and opting for the model answers where everyone is using. . I couldn't decide and cocked up the show eventually. . Anyway, i realised i can't work very well under stress conditions. . . I tend to get very tense up and nervous during such scenario and just screwed everything up. . . This account mainly why i am always the one getting lectures from my commanders. . . Haiz. . chinese new year. . i have lotsa time to spare, because i won't be going around to visit any relative. . . There are few movies which i wanted to watch, memoir of geisha, fearless and i not stupid 2. . . but it seem nobody will be free. . . That is sad. . . It just seems that ever since entering the national service, the time where i'm free, others won't be free, while when others are free, i'm already back in camp. . . Sunday, January 22, 2006 Time just past so slowly inside. . . but when you are outside, it just seems to have accelerated and without yourself noticing, it's just few hours before you have to book in again. . .These two weeks. . . wasn't easy. . . I've lost count of how many lectures i've received from my sergeant. . . Screwed up almost everything inside. . . from drills, marchings, IPPT to technical handling, PTP. . . The worst soldier in the platoon, and that's me. . . I see my OCS ambition flying away. . . or maybe i have gave out the thought. . Army life just wasn't for me. . . i felt so useless inside. . . Still, in hoping for some sort of miracle to happen, i applied for the air force Air Defence Artillery unit. . . A place in the OCS, a result that can get you to university were the criterias. . . Miracle. . . i hope a miracle will happen and get me to OCS. . . My platoon. . . Hawk company platoon 3, was famous in school 1. . . 18 of us, including me. . . went out to the canteen without the commander's permission during our admin time. . . We were caught red handed. . . and worst, my our platoon sergeant. . . Of course we wouldn't do such stupid thing and land ourselves in deep soup if we have knew that we were not supposed to. . . Still, a confinement, most probably during our chinese new year holiday is pending. . . The only good thing in tekong. . . you don't have to waste your brain cell thinking of what you should eat for lunch dinner breakfast. . . They planned the food to cook and you just eat, that's all. . . I wouldn't say that the food there is nice, but at least it was edible. . . I ate a lot everytime. . . yet there was no sign of myself getting any fatter. . . others were eating tiny portions and yet all of them are bigger in size, stronger than me. . . The adjustment week will be over after i book in. . . Life will be more difficult then. . . in just a few hours' time. . In any case, i will have to pull through them. . . and look forward to my chinese new year book out day. . . Tuesday, January 10, 2006 This is recruit CHEN ZHICAI, from Hawk coy, platoon 3 section 1 bed 8. . .Back from Tekong BMTC school 1. . . Barely 3 days from my enlistment and i've got my first book out. . . how lucky. . . but not exactly. . . i didn't feel like going back at all. . . It's raining all day long, and i just feel like lying down and sleep on my comfortable bed. . . Not choice. . . i wouldn't wanna AWOL. . . *absent without leave. . and end up wiping the metal bar. . *behind bars- detention barrack. . booking back in on 1930 later. . . Inside camp. . . My platoon. . . Made up of about 70% SRJCians.. . . My section have got 4. . Marshall is one bed away from me. . . My buddy is a guy from PJ. . . William's his name. . Only been in camp for less than 3 days. . . we have actually done nothing much that is too physical. . . Basically i will just describe them as light training. . . with comparison to the rest of the training that i will be having in future. . . It's our honeymoon period for the first two weeks of course, so there's no punishment. . . no pumping whatsoever. . . However. . . time always seems to be running out these few days. . . Lotsa administration stuffs to do, many lectures to attend, dozens of new things to learn. . . We are simply busy doing everything until light off. . . In fact, the whole platoon was waking up as early as 4 am to finish up their tasks. . . Stress. . . I can clearly see that my platoon is one that will be highly competitive. . . Stress. . everybody just seems so fit and impressive to me. . . With them. . i see my OCS propective dimming. . . This is more obvious as i witness myself managing only 3 chin-ups, screwing up my marching, and failing to perform certain tasks properly. . . Though i have the excuse of being new and inexperience(especially with no uniform cca background), many others were the same but didn't seen to have such problems. . . My hair. . . It's gone now. . . I find myself looking horribly with this new hairstyle. . . I guess i will not wanna step outside of Tekong without something to cover it. . . Over there at Tekong, nobody cares. . everyone just looks the same and we are all guys. . . While bathing, there are no doors, you just stripped like nobody's business and get yourself wash up. . . In anytime, you just tuck your shirt in, even if it means making yourself look like an idiot. . . Everybody's just the same, and nobody cares how you look. . . 9 weeks of Basic Military Training. . . My passing out parade will be on 8 March. . . And my ORD will be on next year january. . . These dates just seems so distant away from me. . . I'm just still at the starting point. . . Nevertheless. . . i'm fine there. . . i'm a man. . . all these are nothing. . . The start of anything is always difficult, but as you go on and adapt to it, everything really slowly come easy. . . i hope so. . . My next book out will be on 21st. . . This weekend will be burned in camp. . . hope everything's fine. . Friday, January 06, 2006 Finally. . . the time has come. . . 7 Jan is just a few hours away. . . 24 hours from now, i will be inside an island. . . island where my life will be occupied with new things. . . physical trainings. . . drills. . etc. . . All of a sudden, i felt a surge of unknown emotions streaming into my heart. . . It's a mixture of fear and anxiety. . . Fear. . the fear of what i will become inside. . . the fear of the unknown which i will soon engaged in. . . Anxiety. . . Anxious about this new point in my life. . . anxious to step into this new phrase in my life. . .Haiz. . . The phrase to change from a boy to a man. . . My last blog entry before my enlistment. . . Good bye. . . Thursday, January 05, 2006 I'm so glad to have her company today. . . So happy. . . Perhaps it's been really so long since i felt so much happiness in me. . . We met up at Tampines Mall, catch a good movie and went for dinner before sending her home. . .Yet i felt so depressed. . . The moment i reached the lift to her house, the moment i see her stepping in into the lift, the moment i knew we have to part. . . I wonder when can i see her again. . . Somehow or rather, this feeling invaded me again. . . The first time i felt it was at Yunan, i was walking along with her, from one village to another. . . And this time, not only was it the same, but it was more intense, i didn't want that to end. . . Walking back to her house, a mere 10 minutes journey, the wind was blowing gently. . . how i wish we never reach our destination. . . Sometimes i just asked myself how much do i really like her. . . The answer was never so clear as today. . . Definitely so much more than any other girls i have like before. . . She's someone who i will always want to care and protect, someone just so unique and beautiful in my eyes. . . But i know, she was never in love with me. . . Still. . i love her all the same. . . Love. . . can be single traffic. . . you want her to be happy. . . to be well and fine. . . I don't mind. . . i will be happy for her if she can find a guy who she can rely. . . be it anybody. . . Love. . . is not selfish in my eyes. . . i seek no return for anything i do for her. . . perhaps only her wellness and happiness. . . Love. . . means knowing when to let go. . . for it no longer matters if she just treat me as a brother, close friend or whatsoever. . . i clearly understood that you can't force someone in loving you. . . Finally went back to my workplace today. . . this time, it's for lunch. . . I didn't ate much. . . i was sorta getting so sick of seeing the food during my working days that it had certainly affected my appetite. . . Nevertheless. . . Ah Si and Kelly were kind enough to give us a special discount. . 4 of us went, all ex-staff. . . Me, Clement, Ethan and Chuanming and we only paid for the price of three. . . Twenty-six bucks each, a good price for a meal like this. . . Of course, we didn't went there to just eat. . . A good time to catch up with old friends there. . . as well as the working life there. . . I didn't expect myself to be missing that place so quickly. . . i guess it's not the work, but the people there. . . most of them were really nice. . . hope they will not forget us by the time we go back again, and wish that they will still be fine and happy. . . Wednesday, January 04, 2006 6.45am. . Nearly half of the doors in my block were opened, half of the seats were taken by students on the bus, half of the population i saw were wearing uniform. . . as i make my way back home. . . This time, back then, for the past 12 years or so in my life, i've been doing the same as them. . Get up early at this time, preparing and rushing to school. . . I never imagine back then, when i was still a student. . . that one day, i will be among those civilians, watching and catching this scene of students going to school in the morning. . .Was at Si Jie's house for the whole night. . . Thought we were be doing something else initially, but i just ended up sleeping for most of the time there. . Nevertheless. . . it's been a happy day. . . A day worth remembering. . i have my class together to celebrate the day of my birth. . . Though not everyone were present. . . it's enough. . . I'm thankful to all, thankful to every single guys and girls in my class, thankful for them making this day possible. . . It's wonderful to have them around, making this day more than significant to me. . . Of course not forgetting to put in a few words of gratitude to Zixiang, Liyun, Kelvin and Sophia. . . Thanks for the shirt. . . And Zixiang. . made me feel as though i owe him a lot. . . Been the one working so hard to make everything goes right. . . A word of thank certainly not enough. . . Hmm. . . What about a kiss. .? Or perhaps you can have Yahui. .? Haha. . Anyway. . just lotsa thank you. . . Tuesday, January 03, 2006 Brewing fire in me. . . The time has past twelve, and from now to about 24 hour's time, it is my 19th birthday. . . Yes. . it's my birthday. . and they are my siblings. . yet they chose to provoke me at this moment. . . i'm fed up. . . I had just reached home and there they are. . . quarrelling all the way. . i chose to ignore initially. . . sitting in the living room, watching my television. . . already drenched of all my energy from work. . . feeling so tired, i didn't wish to interfere at all. . . Finally, my sister ignited the fiery in me, trying to 'highlight' her point to me in the argument. . . I was real pissed, i expected this, and i was prepared to show her the ugly side of me. . . Immediately. . i stood up, staring my eyes wide at her. . telling her i would not heed her words. . . Be it a sorta hooliganism or whatsoever, i didn't like it when i see her words as a form of bringing me into their conflict. . especially at this time where i'm feeling so lethargic. . . Of course, my reaction pissed her off too, and we started our fierce confrontation. . My brother came in to calm me down, tried to put in some sense with his words, but no. . i was in no state to hear anything from him. . i walked off and do my own things. . .It's my birthday. . and fine with me if they didn't celebrate or buy anything, but yet they were letting me listening to them quarelling all the way. . I went home with such a weary body and soul and it's really a torture to hear them doing this. . . Worse, they brought me into the argument. . Perhaps i should tell them, please choose a correct time to pick me up for any argument. . i will get real pissed. . . had enough of all these nonsense. . Haiz. . It's my last day of work. . . Been waiting for so long and finally. . this day has arrived. . A usual day for others, but it's special for both me and chuan ming. . . Had a busy afternoon but the night shift was quite relaxed with few customers. . . the perfect way to end off a whole long month of work there. . . I wander if i will miss the place. . . and i came to this conclusion that i will. . I guess no matter how much you dislike working at the place, there will bound to be some happy memories that will make you feel like going back there. . . Anyway. . it's my birthday. . . sing me a birthday song. . ! Zhu Wo Sheng Ri Kuai Le. .! Sunday, January 01, 2006 It's New year eve. . . with barely minutes to the first day of a new year. . . here i am. . at home. . . I recalled it's been really some times since i had spent my new year eve at home. . otherwise, for the past few years. i had spent it with my buddies counting down outside. . . Perhaps it's because when grow older, you start to dislike crowd, dislike doing such stuffs. . .And ya. . . i tried to get myself quickly away from the orchard streets after leaving my workplace to avoid the crowd. . . Nevertheless. . . New year has arrived. . . Happy new year. . ! hope this 2006 will be one that is enjoyable and smooth for me. . . Went to get a spectacle for my enlistment today. . . It cost $135. . . way out of my $100 budget. . . but i still got it eventually. . . On my way to work from the optical shop, encountered this stranger in the mrt who suddenly talked to me. . . He was a man about my age. . . He asked me whether i'm working, asked where i work and whether i go to church. . . Though i wasn't really keen to answer his questions, i still answered them in the end. . . Lastly, he said he wanted to invite me to church tomorrow. . . Immediately, i just told him i will be working on that day. . even as i wasn't. . . Well. . . it's kinda weird to me. . . a stranger engaging you suddenly and talk to you out of nowhere. . . Alright. . this day of work. . . I guess it's kinda too boring for much of the time. . . Business wasn't very good until at night. . . And i just spent most of the time walking around, clearing one or two plates occasionally. . . The crowd came in after 7.30pm. . . that's the time where i finally found myself getting busy. . and time just flies very quickly. . . All of the hardwork today was rewarded to a sumptuous meal after work. . . A long spread of food was there for us. . . all at the company's expenses. . . It's the last day of 2005 and that's how they celebrated. . with food, beer and even whisky. . . Despite this, i didn't stay for too long. . . I felt quite left out there anyway. . . With the chefs together in one clique, the vietnamese in one clique, the superiors in one clique, i was left with myself. . . i simply just filled my stomach and left after that. . . Tomorrow will not be working. . . monday will be the last day. . . 7 more days to enlistment. .! |
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