Tuesday, October 10, 2006Quote of life. .
Do you rather to have everything now and then lose everything later or do you wanna have nothing now, and gain back everything later. . . ?
Reflection. . . Now in ns, it feel like you are leading some pathetic life. . . You have to live with short hair, your face are infested with pimples due to long time exposure to dry conditions, you have live with a mere $450 a month. . . you have only saturday and sunday to see the beautiful world. . . You see guys everyday. . . You are exposed to the risk of signing extras and doing push-ups every moment. . . You sleep in the afternoon and faced the risk of being turn out in full battle order every second. . . You wake up in the morning having to do area cleaning. . . You go to the cookhouse and lose your appetite because the food really sucks. . .
NS days are like. . . some of the worst day in your life. . . at least it is to me. . .
And well, instead of spending time and money on thinking and applying methods to improve or change the situation, some times, it's kinda better to just live with it. . . Live the worst days now and save up your energy and resources until the day come to ORD. .
So NS/ / Endure through. . . Live with it. . . and make the best out of it. . .
Friday, October 06, 2006Today is an historic moment for me. . . Not because it is mid autumn festival but because. . . today is the day where i got my first guitar. . . . !! Woohoo!! Been learning it for like. . . 3months. . . and finally. . . i've got the instrument myself. . .
I had been hesitant to get the guitar at the first. . . for fear that i will give up learning it in no time. . . i wasn't confident that my lack of music talent can stand the test of time. . . but now. . . 3 months already. . . progress hasn't be any significant. . . i'm still far from coping satisfying with the instrument. . . yet i felt the time is ripe for me to get a guitar so that i can practise harder. . . For a person like me. . . born with no talent, could only depend on hardwork to make up for this incapability. . . So. . . i just hope i will practise and practise and practise. . . and slowly. . . i can upgrade to better guitar or perhaps. . . electric guitar too. . .
Zhong Que Jie. . .Mid Autumn festival. . . Mooncake festival. . . Through the years of this day, i sudden see the evolution of my life. . .
When i was in my kindergarden and lower primary years. . . I will spend my mid autumn with my family at Guang Ming San. . . one of the temple we frequently visited. r. . they will have some kinda celebration there. . . with performance and dance. . . there were also lucky draws held every year. . . and i remember. . . i had won something back home for quite a few occasions. . . I was still a small boy then, i just follow where my parent brought me to. . . A mama's boy. .
Then, from upper primary to upper secondary. . . Mid autumn became a day of havoc. . .With a group of friends, with candles, matches and lighters, we will start a fire. . . For whatever reason. . . we enjoyed it. . we enjoyed playing with fire, we enjoy playing with the candles, staining the ground with wax. . . we loiter around at night. . . making lotsa noises. . creating menace. . . These were like, defiant days. .
But ever since junior college . . mid autumn festival has kinda become quieter for me. . . Perhaps after year 1, i've not been going out to celebrate this occasion. . . Spent it last year studying for my As, and this year. . . i didn't have the kinda mood for it. . . I thought i'm too old for lanterns, candles and havoc. . . So well, i'm here at home. . . watching tv and maybe, gonna play my guitar later. . .
There's a burning smell in the air . . . the haze is really getting bad and i simply hate it. . . hate this kinda smell. . . what on earth is going on. . . forest fire at this time of the season. . . spoiled all the atmosphere for the festival. . .
Since when had support coy became saigang coy. . ? Why are we cleaning up people's ass after they shit. . ? We were not the one who went outfield yet we are clearing up the mess for them after they brought in the dirt and soil after their exercise. . . Maybe it is really like what one of them said. . . support means cleaning up after the combat team finish their combat business. . . and if it is so. . then we can change our company's logo with a broom and dustpan at the centre and call ourselves SG instead of SP. . . I've been cleaning the road so many times that i'm pissed off already. . .
The RSM. . . he's really an asshole. . . He made us did all the saigang and delayed our book out timing. . . Most of us really suspect that he's biased against our company. . . Target us for all the saigangs and then. . . what the hell is that when jaguay coy is having their bbq and we were there, sweating under the moon to clean up the dirty road for him. . . I hate him man. . .
Sunday, October 01, 2006How many wrong choices can one make in his life. . . ? How many chances will he be given. . . ? How many times will his decision end up haunting his entire life. . . How many regrets should one have. . .?
When you do make a mistake. . . what is the first thing you gonna say. . . Sorry. . ? yet you know sorry means nothing. . . it heals no wounds nor ease any pain. . . then why say sorry. . . ? but what can you say. . ?
You look onto the street. . . Couples holding hands. . . You stare in envy. . . Why weren't you in one of them. . . And now you realised. . . you don't deserve to be. . . And yes. . . i deserve this. . .
Filled with guilt. . . Reflections. . . You always turn back, look at the things you have done, and burst into laughters with tears, how silly the things you did. . . And now, i look back, and i'm filled with tremendous regrets, shame and despair. . .
An explanations. . . No point of explaining something that's been over for so long, explanation has lost its meaning. . . but i chose to explain, my heart wants to explain. . . Sometimes you just care about making yourself look good, making yourself sounds good, and you spoke without asking your heart. . .
Bastard. . . I remembered Me, Kelvin and Zixiangs. . . We declared ourselves bastard. . . as though proud of ourselves. . . I didn't mind, it was like a symbolism, to show that we are good pals, and we shared the things in common. . . therefore, sometimes you gonna talk, exaggerate, speak brainlessly to make yourself sounds like one. . . Yet, deep down, i didn't wanna be one. . .
Human being. . . For i'm just an ordinary boy. . . We stare back in regret for the things we have done. . . We always wait for things to happen, before feeling the ache, the pain. . . We always say meaningless words of apology yet knowing things could never be the same again. . . We are foolish people in this world. . .
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