Wednesday, November 29, 2006Block leave. . . but i still feel the need to do some exercises. . . So i went, to the stadium for my exercises. . . A 2.4 km run was enough to make me feel weak from head to toe. . . I didn't took the timing though, but most probably it will not be sufficient to make it for the gold timing. . . I'm rather slow, can't find the energy to go as fast as before. . . It's been more than a week since i've did any running and i realised now that how much my stamina has dropped. . .
Nevertheless, i carried on with some sit-ups and attempted on the chin-up bar. . . As expected, my 10-12 chin-ups standard was not achieved, and instead, i managed only 5. . . so i did 3 sets of 5. . . and then, game over. . . my energy totally depleted when i've finished these exercises. . .
Weak. . feeling so weak now. . . i guess if i'm ask to do my ippt now, i would barely make it for a pass. . . Second year coming in soon, i think it will be after some intensive trainings after block leave before i can get back to shape. .
On my way back from stadium, guess what i saw. . A SFI van! I was feeling so shag, dragging my foot back when i saw this digusting name that produced horrible food, that really triggered me to say. . . what the fuck. . this stupid thing is haunting me even when i'm out of camp. . .
Alright. . . block leave so far hasn't been much enjoyable. . . but somehow it's going so fast that i don't want it to be. . . haiz. . sianz
Saturday, November 25, 2006Extremely pissed off. . . I just wander how on earth did i failed an easy test like RTT (riding theory test) for twice in a row. . . I guess i'm desperately needing some luck. . . Unlike the previous occasion, i had studied this time round, and i was expecting myself to pass. . . And what the hell it turned out, what i had studied weren't tested, and what i had studied were tested instead. . . What the . . . !!
Failed this time and i will have to wait another 3 week for the test again. . . This is really screwed up, i can't wait to finish the course and get the license and now such thing is delaying my progress. . .
And this is indeed gonna hinder my progress. . . I've finally cleared my circuit assessment. . I'm delighted with this of course, yet looking at that, 13 Dec, my RTT date, i can't stop sighing. . . If i had managed to pass my theory test yesterday, i will be happily booking my lesson 6 now. . . and the fact now is, i will have to wait till 13 Dec, pass my RTT, get my PDL(provisional driving licence) before this can happen. . . No luck man. . !
Been on off since wednesday night. . . It's a long break. . . 2 days of off accompanied with 5 days of block leave. . . Enjoy. . ? It's kinda too long. . . If i can choose, i rather clear these offs and leaves bit by bit. . . That's if. . . as a small little man in the battalion, the fate of your offs and leaves are decided by your big gigantic OC and CO. . . CO said we clear our leaves and offs now because we will not be allow to clear any of them when the festive season comes. . . CO say we need a good break before we step into second year of our ns. . . CO say we deserve a long break after a good first year. . . Our CO always make everything sounds so nice in front of everyone. . .
A long break like this, planning how to spend it is really a headache. . . Going out everyday will be waste of money. . . Sleeping at home will be a waste of time. . . Playing game all the way will be a waste of youth. . . So. . ?? a vexing job!
Sunday, November 05, 2006It's been almost 10 years of soccer. . . 10 years. . . Though i wasn't some fantastic players who starred in every matches, breaking into national squad, i have been fairly satisfied with what i had achieved through this decade of football. . .
There were glorious moments. . . there were moments where i really played well and won the praises of many. . . and it was because of the mentality that made me to put in my best in every matches, working hard in the games, going for tackles after tackles that brought those moments of victorious. . . Even when the opponents were much more stronger than us, there was no fear in me in going into the game to play for a win. . .
Has all these been gone with history. . .?
Through the series of matches that i had played. . . i must say things are really different now. . . Or perhaps, ever since the last v3 match that i had played, the feeling on the pitch is never the same again. . .
The spirit to play regardless of victory wasn't there. . . i hasn't been able to play to very best, and if i could, my skills and technique of the game has almost dissipated. . . All i saw during the last few matches that i had played were blunders after blunders, mistackles etc. . . even the basic idea of playing the position was missing. . . the energy, to make tiredless runs were lost. . . I'm just at the verge of losing my ability to play, and the way i'm playing is just like a rookie on the pitch. . .
Desperate to go back and play like before. . . but how. . .? I always have great faith in my ability to play the game, yet for now, it seems like it's no more like before, and i had became a noob of the game. . .
Today's match was a testiment of all these. . . My blunder conceded a goal, my performance is rock bottom. . . we lost the game. . . lost to some weak opponent. . . how lousy can you be when you can't even play well again some weak players. . .?
Perhaps only one thing that hasn't change. . . my love for the game. . . and i just hope next match will be better. . .
Friday, November 03, 2006Formation soccer tournament. . . After all these time of going down for trainings, friendly matches etc. . . and in the end. . . I wasn't even given a chance. . . not even a place in the reserves. .
Now i realised. . . the logic. . . Wanna play. . ? Sign on. . . !
What does the fellow know. . . ? Simply came down for a single training session, played one friendly match and there he is, selecting players for the tournament matches, commenting on our mistakes as though he's some football expert. . . LTA Don, S4 42SAR. . .
I could have played much more better than any left back he had fielded, all i need is a chance. . . and yet he chose to let a regular officer who is not even a natural defender to start. . . yet he named a player who hasn't even played a friendly match with us before to be in the reserve. . .
No doubt that i have to admit, my performance was below average for the last friendly that we had played before the tournament. . . and that was the only friendly, that our 'beloved' captain had played with us. . . and if that was the reason that cost me a place in the tournament squad, i can't accept it. . . One friendly to determine my capability. . .? simply atrocious. . .
I can't hide my anger and disappointment for not making into the squad. . . It's been two matches, and there has been no sign of intention to field me at all. . . It seems like this ass is determined to keep to his original first team squad. . . I curse and swear that his experiment of his left backs backfire. . . And i had made up my mind. . . to quit the team and never to join formation soccer for as long as that asshole is still the captain. . .
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Name: Chen Zhicai (Call me Keith!)
Hangouts: K box, K pool
Sometimes, what you want in life may not be what you will achieve in life. Sometimes, what you want in life will change as you came to realise of your limitations and constraints.
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