Friday, June 29, 2007Spending spree. . . !!
Bought a watch. . . bought a pair of street soccer shoe. . .
I'm just in time to do some shopping before the GST increase comes in in 2days' time. . .
Nevertheless. . . it's still a big hole in my pocket. . . must try to scrimp and save until pay day comes. . . i'm just not very rich. . .
I saw jerry on the way back to camp on sunday. . . We took the same bus to camp and spoke to each other on the way. . . we were good friends. . . i hope it's still so now. . . but somehow, after not seeing each other for some time, after so much things happened, there was a sense of awkwardness occasionally while we were talking. . .
Clearly awared of what had happened now, i tried not to bring up the incident during our conversations. . .
I asked about his life now, about how he is doing. . . and i found out, perhaps it isn't very good. . . to me. . . from the things he told me, it was obvious that he had changed. . . drinking every night when he's out of camp. . . doing things in camp that can land him with extra duties. . . He admitted that he's drinking to escape from things that he is facing when i asked. . . he gave me the feeling that he is really despair with his life. . . that it has loses some meanings. . .
i know why. . . but i didn't know how to console, i didn't know the right things to say so that he can stop being like this. . . instead, simply i told him that he should know all these things that he is doing isn't healthy. . . i reminded him that he won't do these in the past. . . these are practically useless words. . . i know i would never understand how he is feeling, because i have never been through what he is through. . . nevertheless, i just hope someone could just walk him out of all these and bring him back to his normal self. . .
Thursday, June 28, 2007I'm so tired. . .!! Can't sleep in the day. can't sleep well in the night. . . haiz. . sucks. . .
It's such a busy week. . . tomorrow's off will come as a deserving one. . .
Drivers are the busiest people in spike platoon. . . they are the ones who did the most work. . . We really deserve something. . . one or two days off are not enough. . .
PS said he understand and recognise all the hardwork we have been putting in. . . he promised he will give us offs. . . definitely more than the gunners. . . but how many. . .?
PS said as far as he is concerned, he believes that spike platoon's drivers are the most competent in terms of operation maintenance in the entire company. . . I raised both my hands and shouted that i completely agree. . . I highlighted that we deserved more. . .
I've got my corporal first class, so it doesn't matter much in terms of rank and pay wise. . . but for the rest of them, still a lance corporal, drawing a pathetic 550 pay. . . despite having to share the heavy workload. . .
kinda not very fair, especially when pc had chose to promote quite a number of the gunners to corporal recently. . . so if sleeping in bunk and purely performing in the simple atec evaluation can earn promotion, pay rise and off days. . . simply we wouldn't mind a switch of role. . . i don't mind enduring a bit of hardships during exercise with the two missiles or weapon system on my back. . . anyway we are trained already. .
This week's workload really take the toll out of us. . . Got our hands dirty with grease, sweating like crazy under the damned weather doing servicings, bring and preparing the vehicles for floatation test. . . If CSM can give excuse a day of sai gungs for chong hong and leslie for doing some work for him today, maybe he should give us excuse sai gung for a couple of months consider the work we had done so far. . . that was what jerome said. . .
Tired. . . this off is hard earned. . . entire morning and noon we have been doing the armour only sai gung. . . clearing mud sludge accumulated at the washing bay as well as cleaning the road which has been covered with soils from outfield. . . dirty job. . . you sweep, you clean, you wash, you dig and you pour. . . doing it after the 4.2km battalion run and under the burning hot sun. . . . the whole company was doing it and it somehow felt like a company cohesion, cohesion doing sai gung. . . anyone can guess how pathetic it was. . .
Sunday, June 24, 2007This week was the first out of many many weeks that i had spent the entire week in camp. . . Next week will be the second. . .
It's projected to be a horrible week ahead. . . with plenty of saigungs, including cleaning up of the road that look like part of sahara desert, bringing the vehicles of dip test etc etc. . . also, there is the battalion route march on friday. . . 16km. . . disgusting. . . i wish i needn't take part. . .
Quite busy over these two weekends. . . that i'm so irritated that i couldn't find enough time to play game a bit longer. . . also. . . the fatigue that's accumulating. . . i'm really tired. . . i wish back to camp there's nothing to do then i can get back all the sleep i needed. . . not likely this week. . .
Sian. . i'm looking forward to july. . . so that i can quickly finish the atec and countdown to ord. . .
Friday, June 22, 2007Back from the semis. . . back as one piece. . . except for some heat rashes. .
It's over. . the full-troop exercise. . . It was just merely three days two nights. . .
For my job, it was just plainly lasting through the fatigue at night and drive them to their destination. . . It wasn't anything simple. . like what most of others see. . . picking up the concentration to drive at a time most feel sleepy is tough. . . it's a challenge to keep yourself awake and not to fall asleep while driving itself. . . Some things are not as simple as it may look. . .
Then, the vehicle feels like sauna inside. . . When the vehicle goes into tactical halt for whatever reason, the engine had to be cut and there goes the only source of cooler. . . the whole interior became a sauna inside during the day time. . . there's where i realised i could sweat even when i'm sleeping. . .
Done with the semis now, it is still not known whether the CO will give us offs for the hardwork put in. . . we shall see whether he's a good man. . .
Anyway, though the full troop is finished. . . we were given no much time to let our hair down. . . the road that lead back to camp looked like part of sahara desert now. . . soon the RSM gonna get us down to polish it shine again. . . i hate this the most seriously. . . it's freaking hardwork. .
then, there are maintenance to do, washing of outfield equipments etc etc. . . unlimited things to do. . . sick. . .
Sunday, June 17, 2007Gonna book in by 1900 tonight to prepare for full troop exercise. . . sianz. .
4days 3nights outfield. . . but some said it's only gonna be about 3 days. . . whatever it is. . i hate going outfield. . . the thought of having to stay overnight outfield for 3 nights disgust me. . .
I'm gonna eat biscuits, eat maggi mee and not any of the ration packs. . . they taste like dog food. . .
Feel like sleeping now. . . but no way. . . going to play some games before i set off back to camp. . . i'm looking to get back those sleep outfield. . . hopefully the weather will be like today. . . doesn't matter if it rains. . . it's cooler that way. . .
Saturday, June 16, 2007I'm slightly disappointed. . . It was my activity this time and only 6 of the kids turned up. . . what a let down. . .
Nevertheless, even with only 6 of them, the programme still have to go on. . .
It was a fathers' day activity and we were making burgers and buns to feed their fathers after a whole day of hard work. . . that was the highlight. . . they kinda enjoyed it. . .
before that we did the norms like playing word games and drawings. . . with only 6 children, most of them shy and quiet, 4 were new, the entire programme just don't seem to get going. . . As hard as we tried, they were unresponsive. . . most of the time. . .
i know them pretty well now, the few who came are those who speak less and appear less enthusiastic. . . but sometimes you can't help pondering whether you had done enough to make the entire thing more interactive and interesting so as to get their participation. . .
After being there, witnessing the previous few events, i'm quite sure that today was one of the less successful ones. . . attributed mainly to the adsent of the more enthusiastic regulars and perhaps to a certain extent, ourselves. . .
I'm really keen to plan more programmes for them, hope when my turn comes again the next time, there can be a better attendance, then i won't be able find excuses if it turned out like this again. . .
Thursday, June 14, 2007Wander why am i here in the middle of the week. . . off again. . .!!
I don't want this too. . . i had planned to spend the entire of the weekdays in camp. . . . all thanks to my beloved platoon sergeant. . . he wants us to clear our offs for this thursday and friday so that we won't accumulate so many offs. . . basket. . . totally spoiled all my plans. . .
It's gonna be heartbreaking. . . i will be seeing myself wasting two precious offs now. . . It all came so sudden and i had not plan anything to do for these two days. . . except maybe just sleep, play games and slack at home. . .
It's been all that was expected in camp during the 3 days inside. . . Servicings and preparation for full troop exercise next week. . . Seriously i will be more than happy to be back there doing servicings than to waste my off here. . . there are still quite some amount of work to be done yet. . i can't understand what he is thinking, clearing offs at this point of time. . . damn it, i just have to suck thumb and follow the orders. . .
Sunday, June 10, 2007Another sunday again. . . gonna be the start of another week again. . .
This week will be the last week before the 4 days 3 nights full troop exercise commends. . . Expect lotsa preparations ahead. . . Servicings, fixing on the test sets etc etc. . . i won't see myself too free ahead. . .
I think it's good. . . time will seem to pass faster this way. . .
It was a secondary school class gathering yesterday night at marina square. . . Less than half of the class attended, but i don't care the less. . . We had dinner at yuki yuki, a seoul garden style buffet that costed me 22 bucks. . . and spent the rest of the time loitering around the marina square area. . .
Look at it, it has been fast isn't it. . . 4 years since graduation from secondary school. . . it feel like it was not too long ago. . .
but for the people, those who attended, they haven't seem to change any much to me. . . whether in the good or bad ways they are pretty much the same to me. . .
Nevertheless, somehow i feel that i'm not really close to this class. . . It was attributed due to reasons like we have drifted apart since graduations, that i'm like not that prominent in class then and that i'm not one of those who talk and clique well with all of them. . . except for those closer ones, the rest of them i barely exchanged a few words throughout the gathering. . .
Not too vexed with that, i'm more of happy to see four of us back to good terms once again. . . Kingsley, Chee yong, aik wei and me. . . We were the four great friends in the class and it's like we are back again, as great friends. . . there have been some misunderstandings between cy and kingsley and finally, after nearly 4 years, they have got that resolved and back to good terms again. . .
i would say that i haven't really had some marvellous secondary school life, but having three of them as my clique was one of the better moments. . . to relive those kinda friendships spent that time was more than a joy than ever. . . so well. . . hope it can continue. . .
Friday, June 08, 2007Gonna book in back to camp for guard duty later in the afternoon. . . Sickening. . . but think about it, i haven't been doing any much guard duty since the start of this year. . . so well, suck thumb and do it. . . be it a company off today. . .
For the past two or three weeks, there hasn't been a week that i spent it totally in camp. . . Clearing my offs, public holiday, attend c, company offs, battalion offs etc etc. . . It made me feel that i'm gonna be no more in the army soon. . . but wake up, it's not so soon. . . This week is gonna be the last week i will be online in the middle of the week, the last week that i will be so free playing games in the middle of the week. . . anyway, i believe that it's gonna get busy for us. . Full troop exercise coming in two weeks' time and atec in 1 month's time. . . lotsa preparations will be on the way. . . and ironically, i will be looking forward to get myself busy with such. . . for the moment, my mentality will be to quickly finish all these shits, smoothly and safely complete what i needa ord. . . 5 months to go. . . . bring the worst that can come. . .!
Ya hui got into the top 20 for the star search 2007. . . that's great new. . . Just a couple of days ago she was featured in the Today newspaper and now she had got herself into the competition. . . seemed like she will be on the route to fame. . . hope everything will continue to go right for her then maybe we will be able to see her on the tv soon. . . good luck. . . !
Thursday, June 07, 2007It didn't come with any surprises. . . it wasn't a shock. . . i failed again. . .
i don't know why. . . but i'm still stucked in a state of depression. . . 1 hour after i had collected the result. . .
seriously. . . i felt like crying. . . i haven't been feeling useless for so long. . . perhaps never feel as useless as this time. . . i took so long to learn. . . to reach this stage. . . and now i'm taking so long to move on. . . while people i see already got their license decades ago, i'm still jammed here. . .
failures. . . it is so hard to swallow. . . no matter how hard i tried to convince myself that i can always try again until i pass and stuffs like that, it still made me feel like shit. . .
I really wish i can just go to sleep now and forget everything about that i had failed again and have to wait for another 2 months to take the test again. . .
Miserable. . . why so useless. . . arghhhhhh. . . fuck up. .
Wednesday, June 06, 2007Booked out for my tp tomorrow. . .
I'm so worried. . . ! My intuition tells me that i'm not gonna make it tomorrow. . . What should i do. . . I'm desperate to land my 2b license. . . please. . !
my only hope now is to pray now and then. . . pray that i could just have all the luck i'm needed to see me through smoothly tomorrow. . . A pass tomorrow will make my week a perfect one. . . I haven't been in the best of mood since booking back to camp on monday. . . life in camp just get more sick and tiring for me each day. . .
I want a pass. . . i want a pass. . . i want my license. . ! i don't want to repeat the test again. . . !!!!! help me. . !
Monday, June 04, 2007Got an off today to cater for a last minute revision before i take my traffic police test again this thursday. . .
It was not a good revision done. . . especially after seeing how i did, i wasn't confident at all at passing this thursday's test. . . I realised that i'm prone to making some common mistakes that may prove fatal eventually. . . god bless me this thursday. . . i really need lotsa luck to pass. . . and most importantly, i must pass. . .! failing will bring me another whole lot of inconvenience and waste of time and money. . . i can't wish to see that happen. . .
I nearly got an accident just now. . . my vehicle banged onto a car that was turning right in the circuit. . . the road was wet after the rain and i couldn't manage to stop in time upon seeing the danger ahead. . . fortunately there wasn't any damage to myself and the bike. . .
Gonna book in later. . . sianz. . they are having atec stage 1 this entire week. . . hope i will be able to slack in bunk since i will not be involved. . . if not just don't give us too much servicing to do. . . pray for a slack life. .
Sunday, June 03, 2007Our beloved big brother Chris had got a girlfriend. . . ! Congratulation. . .
He brought her to Max's birthday just now and we all saw her. . . well. . . i trust his taste. . . Chris won't choose a girl who smoke, act indecently and talk a lot. . . it hasn't prove any of my descriptions wrong so far that i had seemed. . .
as for appearance. . . i wouldn't say that she is really beautiful. . . just normal typical good looks. . and again, the same old phrase applies, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. . and it's beyond pure superficial qualities. . . i can tell that she's a nice and understanding girl. . . because she's chris's girlfriend. . .
Anyway, it's good to see that they are going on pretty well. . . chris is a great buddy to us and he surely deserve someone great too. . . so hope she's indeed the one he's looking for. . Came back at about 5 plus am just now. . . I was at the pub with some of my buddies to celebrate max's birthday. . . and i remember the name of the pub now. . . it's the ladyrinth. . .
Not too bad this time round. . . I didn't get myself drunk and 'merlioned'. . . but still. . . i must say that i can't stand absolute vodka with cransberry. . . it's sour and give me a nausea feeling. . .
As usual. . . we played the usual games and the loser will drink. . . and i'm always a bad player for these. . . i lost so many rounds that to a point of time, i drank so much till i thought i was gonna end up like one of those days that i vomited and went hazewire. . .
luckily i didn't. . .
but others are not so fortunate. . . wei jian was the first victim. . . we embarked on a mission to make him drunk very early in the party after 'witnessing' his overbearing attitude towards us. . . -taunting us to make him drunk. . . and we showed no mercy. . . in a short time, he was transformed into a merlion lying down on the sofa in the superman position. . . knocked out. . .
then, willy became the latest victim. . . fell to the hands of chris late in the party. . . and eventually i have to send him back home. . .
of course, the birthday boy was also constantly bombarded with liquor. . . and the rate that he was fed with alcohol was frightening. . . i lost count of how many times he vomited, how many times he went out of the pub to get some fresh air, to escape the alcohol bombardment, looking and feeling so horribly. . . but in any case, you must give your hat to him. . . despite all that, he still managed to stand tall and strong in the end. . .
Friday, June 01, 2007A good week to welcome me back from my the 5 days attend c. .
Went back to camp on monday after taking off my stitch at NDC in the morning and well, that was about it. . . A full monday stay in camp and that was it. .
Tuesday was our platoon cohesion and we left in the morning for chevron. . . where we booked in for a 2 days 1 night chalet. . . Pretty enjoyable time i think but perhaps slightly boring at times. . We started off with 2 games of bowling. . . A disastrous outing for me. . . I'm really lousy at it, scoring like 30 plus for each of the two games. . . It's not my sport, but i'm kinda looking to improve on it so that when people ask me to play i won't play like such a noobie. . . so after 2 games, i felt i have kinda got the gist of it, i hope so. . .
Then after bowling, the remaining time we just spent it doing normal chalet things like barbequeing, playing PS 2, majong, cards. . . But we got so many people, so for games like ps 2 and majong, you hardly get a chance to play. . . So, it was boring sometimes. . . and i got jerome and see yong with me to the ktv there. . . we got a room for 8 per hour and had a bottle of beer while singing. . . soon, we were joined by pc, chong hong and daniel. . . and became, a lesser chance to sing. . . luckily, it was fun. . as chong hong and daniel proved great entertainers with the microphone. . .
So that was it, the end of 1 day in chalet. . . back to camp in the afternoon the following day, we thought it's gonna be hell. . . with a standby bed scheduled by csm and a parade in queue. . it wasn't as bad as we thought. . . the standby bed was conducted by ps but the parade turned out to be only an appointment presentation by co to oc in the lecture room. . . in other words, we didn't have the parade. . . that was the best part. . .
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