Sunday, June 22, 2008I could remember vividly. . it wasnt too long ago. . less than 1 hour before this moment. .
Suddenly, it became torturously painful. . Not the kind of pain that you feel when you got a deep cut or something, it's something that i felt so hard to stand. .
It threw me into a sudden fit of shivering. .
And as the harsh wind blew on my legs, shoulders and face, all which were uncovered by the cloths that were on me, the pain intensified. . i wouldnt want to move an inch more if i could, as every slight movement make the pain more unbearable. .
Mustering all my endurance, i tried to reach for my windbreaker and waterproof pant from the box as i continued to shiver in the coldness. .
Finally, after a hell of a struggle, i got them out and put them on. .
it eased the intensity, yet not entirely rid of it. . i was suffering every minute on the road till i reached home. . at last. . it was over. .
i was pillioning Jerry back from our night cycling at that point of time. .when it started to drizzle and rain on our way back. . At first the chill was bearable, yet as the rain got heavier, it became too much for me to continue riding. . As i stopped by the roadside, i found myself shivering helplessly. .
I was at my weakest. . and i saw my weakest. .
Monday, June 16, 2008Do you think im childish. .? Im think im very very childish. .
and i cant help it. .
Not only that. . i think im quite stupid too. . but since stupid is a relative term, i will say im not smart. .
Dont ask me when am i thinking it this way. . it's a combination of incidents. . i just want to vent my unhappiness here. .
because some things i wouldnt prefer to tell. . not to anyone. .
Smile. . smile even when it's at the worst. . Yes im wearing it now. . just that i dont feel a single good inside. .
Heaven seemed forgotten to bless me with certain things in life. . im struggling to get hold of them. .
Saturday, June 14, 2008One of those days i feel like shit. .
Look forward to soccer with so much enthusiasm and it turned out to be a horrendous outing. .
Don't play anymore, just go home and sleep. . im thinking it this way. .
Im pretty pissed off with the way we played. . im sorry if i had shouted on the court. . it was not directed at anyone. . i just cant help but to let my anger be let off instantaneously. .
Against Nic's team and the NYJC team, we looked like easy meat to them. . I seriously hate it, especially when the way we were playing wasnt even close to putting in a good fight with them. .
Im frustrated. . im not in the best of mood these few days. . wish i can just close my eyes and forget all the things. . Im blogging!
Im blogging because i feel like im the least busy man on earth. . Im blogging because i really feel bored. .
I feel like im wasting time. . but im too lazy. . too lazy to find something to do. . Wednesday, thursday, friday. . I stayed at home except tuitions. . im damn like. . no life. .?
everyone's busy with a job, except me. . cant expect myself to go out everyday and waste my hard earned money? Already that damned bike is giving me hell of a problem that ive been sending it to the workshop for repairs once and again. . splashing cash again and again. .
Life aint easy. . Never feel good to be in any state. . Slack too much you feel guilty, play too much you feel guilty too. . Work too hard you find it too tiring. . Never work you find it too uneasy. .
Haiz. . Im so useless now. . need to find ways to make myself useful. .
I just hope the weather is good tomorrow morning. . Playing soccer. . Soccer is like my escape from reality right now. . Only in soccer i really find myself. . where i really can indulge and truly let go. .
Monday, June 02, 2008Im really feeling very vexing. . It's like. . so many things on my mind. . so many things that i have got to settle, it's kinda driving me crazy. .
This afternoon's event was had gave me a hell of a time. . I rode to woodland for tuition. . I was able to start the vehicle, it all went off smoothly. . Never did i know that the vehicle suddenly failed to start when i was prepared to ride back home. . I broke sweat to try to get it started. . but to no avail. . Such a heavy vehicle, i was pushing it here and there, down the slope and even up the slope. . Finally i gave up in desperation. . Called the bike shop fella and requested for towing. . Spoke to one the guy on the phone, i wasnt sure whether he understand what i was saying, he was like, got no clue of where the hell i was at. . somehow he just said ok, got my details and hung up. .
Im not sure how this thing gonna be settle, i just really pissed off that the vehicle give me this kinda problem at this timing, and i have to fork out money now to fix it. . It's not gonna end like this, not until they called me and tell me that the vehicle has already been towed. . I wouldnt be surpised that when i returned tomorrow, my vehicle is still left there, not towed. .
Pissed off. . why the hell am i paying for such a crap motorcycle. .
And then, my university thingy still not yet settled. . The damned SMU still not yet reply back to me regarding my application. . Cant they just quickly tell me if i am rejected. . This is freaking inefficient. . I needa confirm my NUS admission by this week and get all the administration stuffs settled soon. .
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