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Friday, May 26, 2006 I've got my off days. . . finally. . . Something did cock up in the process which causes a slight delay, but i'm happy enough to still be able to get myself away from the army camp from tuesday to sunday. . .Yes. . it's my off days. . . it's not others. . . Friends. . they are mostly working, studying, in camps. . . It's quite abit of letdown that i have to spend most of my off days at home. . . Not saying that it's not good, in fact i rather slack at home than to be back in the camp. . . but well, it will have been more fun and enjoyable if i could have spent them outside with friends. . . True enough, now that i'm in the army, there's really nothing much that i can be occupy with, except just training, training and training. . . Yet that's definitely not what i want, i do not wanna be turned into a stupid boy, after my two years in the army. . . I wanna learn something useful, i wanna gain as much knowledge and skill as possible during this time so that i won't have to struggle or find myself lacking so much behind when i return back to society as a civilian. . . It's kinda stress thinking how to achieve all these and i've found myself having more grey hair recently. . . Ways to enrich your life in the army. . .? How i wish there's a book about that. . . I really need some guidance. . . All i can see that it hardly achieveable for now. . . given the unpredictable training schedule that's going on. . . I wanted my bike license desperately and my class 3 before i ord. . . And it's just frustrating. . . frustrating that most of the time we spent in army is waiting. . . waiting and waiting. . . If we can just save up all these waiting time perhaps it will bring forward another 3months to my ord. . . then i can do more things with this extra time. . . There are more things that awaits us back in this society and spending one more day in the army is just like wasting one more day of your life away. . . Stress. . . it's ironic that after leaving school, you still end up leading a life that clot up as much stress in your mind as before. . . There's just plenty to think, plenty to worry. . . As much as i've expected it. . . i can't help feeling demoralised after receiving NTU's rejection letter. . . I'm rejected for all the 5 choices that i had chosen. . . All the while i've been so optimistic. . . i thought my results was good enough to allow to me choose a course i wanted. . . And it were all proven wrong. . . Now. . . it's up to fate to decide. . . A one last appeal for maths and econs. . . Gut feelings tells me that it's not gonna turn out right. . . I pray that's not gonna happen. . . I can't imagine university application is giving so much of a headache. . . though i still have got a last option. . . - to accept nus arts and social sciences. . . i'm still in a dilemma whether i should accept it. . . not what i want. . . but i don't seem to have any other choice now. . . |
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Profile Name: Chen Zhicai (Call me Keith!) Addictions Hangouts: K box, K pool Objectives Sometimes, what you want in life may not be what you will achieve in life. Sometimes, what you want in life will change as you came to realise of your limitations and constraints. Careers Team: Full-time v3 player archives September 2005 Tag Me!
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