Sunday, November 09, 2008

Sometimes. . sometimes i really feel really screwed. . i feel so screwed in my academics that i really feel intensely inferior whenever im in studio. . It's the kinda feeling that prevent you from being in the mood of socialising with others. . You just want to be in something that keeps you away from the need of talking to people. .
depression? too stress? after thursday's 7 hours exercise im as though in nobody's land. . i didnt manage to complete my work. . i handed up a piece of drawing with just two diagrams inside. . while others have at least 3 or 4. . or maybe one horrendously good one. . mine. . two what the fuck kinda diagrams. .

Im not gaining any confidence. . im not feeling any confidence. . i had encountered numerous confidence people in my life. . and i really wander what spark the confidence in them. . Confidence people, naturally attractive. . I want to be like that. .

Steve told me, you have to be good in something. . So what the hell am i good at? Soccer? I remembered being very confidence when i play soccer. . I was in the secondary soccer team and the coach thought so highly of me. . i felt good. . people said im good. .
And what the heck now. . i doubt i can even make into the Sheares first team. . i tried so hard in the end i realised i played like some crap shit. .

At this point of time, i really feel so screwed up. . screwed up screwed up screwed up. .

i won't give up akit. . i love akit. . i just hope things to be better. . i want to gain back my confidence. . then i will have the mood for others things. . i believe when only that get better. . better things will come. . but now. .
i am really depress. . .
if god is around. . please help me. .

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1.罗志祥 - 搞笑
2.罗志祥 - 第二顺位
3.王力宏 - 心跳
4.罗志祥 - 幸福不灭
5.罗志祥 - 个中强手
6.周杰伦 - 时光机
7.林俊杰 - 我还想她
8.周杰伦 - 说好的幸福呢

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Name: Chen Zhicai (Call me Keith!)
Date of Birth: 3rd January 1987
Horoscope: Capricorn
Country: Singapore
School: Before- Xinmin Primary, Bowen Secondary, Serangoon Junior College. Now- 42 SAR, SP Coy, SPIKE Platoon. Future- National University of Singapore, Architecture.

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Hangouts: K box, K pool
Music Genre: Chinese Pop
Singer: Jay Zhou
Songs: 用心听. 背叛. 退后. 非你莫属. Kiss Goodbye.
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Club: Liverpool
Player: Steven Gerrard

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Sometimes, what you want in life may not be what you will achieve in life. Sometimes, what you want in life will change as you came to realise of your limitations and constraints.
University- A course that i want.
Pre-University- Car License/Bike license, get my own bike.

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History: Bowen 'C' Division(2001), Bowen 'B' Division(2002-2003), NYJC(2004 1st 3mths)

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